2015_10/4
I used to paint a lot of realistic landscapes as a motif for my paintings, and for a moment I thought that I meant nature in that sense, but I came to the conclusion that "natural behavior" or a natural feeling is more appropriate to the connotation of the word "nature" in my mind. I have come to the conclusion that "natural behavior" or such natural feeling fits better with the meaning of the word "nature" in my mind.
I do not know much about the natural world or environment. When I was thinking about the theme for this project, I looked back at my past works, but I did not feel like painting them at all. They did not feel realistic at all. I felt that I could not do this anymore. I have my hands full just living every day. Every day, I wake up, cook dinner, go to work, come home, cook dinner again, and so on, and in the end, I could only think of words from the perspective of my painting. In thinking about how I perceive nature, I can only think in terms of nature for me as a painter, and when I think about what nature is, I can't think of anything difficult. I have been working on antique-finishing paintings for several years now.
I have been into making antique picture frames for several years now, and I spend much more time making frames than I do painting. This time, too, I had to think about the picture to be placed inside the frame first, but I wanted the frame and the picture to become one, so I started making the frame with the inside of the frame blocked off from the beginning. As a result, the picture took this shape, but most of what I had painted was lost. When I started to draw a form, I started to see it in various objects, and as I drew more and more, different images kept attaching themselves to it. The more I drew, the more different images kept getting attached to each other. I felt like I was going crazy, so I decided to delete all the images, and that led to this form, which I thought was a natural thing.
2015_10/5
The word "artificial" seems to me to describe "the degree to which the human ego has created something." Seigo Matsuoka, an editorial engineer, said, "Information has spiky spikes." I think that things are full of invisible spines (tentacles) like sea anemones and sea urchins, and that the more spines they have, the more "natural" they feel, and the less spines they have, the less natural they feel. People are creatures who draw boundaries between reality by cutting off the spiny bits of things to suit their own convenience. I think that the boundaries that people draw for their own survival are considered part of "nature" (even if they are mistaken) because they feel a sense of inevitability in the choice of the prickly spikes that have been cut off. Boundaries that do not involve inevitability have an artificial coldness, and you might say that the other shore is 'evil'....
In the case of painting, I think that the relationship between the "screen (picture plane)" prepared in advance, the "I" who draws on that screen, and the "reality" of the exhibition itself is "nature. When the viewer intervenes, a new relationship is born, and the reality expands. There is a gulf between such a relationship and my figurative acts. I do not know how to jump over it.
